Monday, September 13, 2010
Thoughts and Questions about My Three Year Blog Birthday
As my blog approaches it's third birthday (Oct 4th), 1090 posts and counting, I have been thinking and questioning. Oddly enough it almost seems sacrilegious to question my blog and its purpose, but I must.
My blog, a long time friend to me, needs a change. The necessity of posting daily, which I have taken so seriously, much to the annoyance to many family members, is the issue. Is it helping or stymieing my growth as an artist? I often find that my work schedule is wrapped around that need to post. My posts are sometimes uninteresting and simply a post.
When I began my blog October 4, 2007 it was as a discipline. Finally I had the joy of painting full time and teaching only part time. A celebration. I wanted to be accountable for my time so that I would never fritter away this hard-won victory. A Painting-a-day blog was my answer.
Now, fast forward...... and I find the need for accountability is not there. My "need" to paint is so embedded in me that it could be considered an obsession. Now I wonder, is need to create a small painting each day distracting me from the larger goal of creation. My work en plein air has grounded me and continues to help me understand light and I will never leave it. But who is the steering wheel, me or the blog?
Yipes! This has been in my head for a long time. As I purge my thoughts I am relieved and uneasy at the same time. So tell me bloggers, I am certain that you have met this challenge as well. Please take a moment and share your thoughts. Folks without blogs (we love you too), I am sure you can relate, what is your experience?