|6x9 pastel and watercolor on Uart|
As I thought about the symbolic crossroads I have reached in my life I needed to ponder more about the differences during this "time away from life" that I have experienced for the last 3 months. When immersed in my regular life I was constantly processing and multi-tasking. During this time of recovery my time slowed down to a wonderful standstill. It was as if I was at Walden Pond, alone. There were no real expectations of me, except to heal. Very different from life, eh? I lived in my head for the first month and painted from my bed. My ideas grew because they had NO competition for my attention. I have learned to trust my head and crave silence. I want less activities staking claim to my mind. Yet, still I am not a hermit, and truly love my husband, family and friends. As I prepare to enter my life again I wonder how do I create that environment in this crazy hamster wheel I call life? That is the challenge we all face each day. But, for me, having a glimpse of sanity makes me want more.